Confuse of the situation... What does he really want to happen?

There was a time that I never thought that true love exist...

Sad thing to say, when true love came to me. It stroke me hard that I couldn't let go of it even though it hurts.
I tried pretending that it doesn't hurt like hell, but sometimes there is an ending to everything you endure.

JANUARY started it all...

There was a guy named Elgene Silverio made all of this stories possible. He made everything complicated from the start but the same time a memory to remember because of the laughs, jokes, tears even the sweats we shed.

January 1, 2010 (Friday)

We'll as we all know it is New Year and we had the traditional party at home. Obviously, I got to drunk to go up the stairs but thankfully after being sober I manage to go up. When I laid down my bed, I received a weird text message coming from Elgene saying "Uy, gising ka pa? Labas naman tayo ngayon. Boring dito, ayoko pang umuwi. Kagagaling ko lang kila Byron, naginuman kami." After reading this text message, I laughed as hard as I can. I was thinking, "What the hell does this person saying? This late at night, asking me out. HAHAHA." But then again, I simply replied that I am too drunk to be travelling that late at night and that I really want to sleep. But he keeps insisting, the typical Loser he is. So just to make him stop from bothering me, I made a STUPID promise that I would go out with him some other time. (Pero sa totoo lang hindi ko maalala yung mukha niya. Kasi naman noh?! Never ko pa siyang nakakausap ng personal puro lang text sa akin. Kaya wala sana akong balak tuparin yung promise ko.) And in the first place, many of his so called friends told me that his not supposed to be trusted. So I just played along with his trip. Then after making that promise, he said his goodbyes (Thank God!) and finally I got the chance to sleep peacefully.

January 2, 2010 (Saturday)

When I woke the next morning very late, maybe it was at around 1 in the afternoon. (See, umaga pa sa akin yun.) my head still felt like a hammer smashing into it. I thought I was just having the strangest dream about my stupid promise but I was wrong. When I read all the text messages in my phone, my headache just got worst than ever. I can't believe I made that promise, maybe I was just too drunk to tell whether it is the reality. OMG! This is so going to start a fight with Byron. He won't believe me if I would say to him that I was just drunk. He would say that I just wanted to flirt with his groupmate. (Pero alam ko naman yung totoo kaya bakit ako magaalala. Kapag hindi siya naniwala sa akin ibig sabihin wala siyang tiwala sa akin.) Maybe by now, you're thinking what's with Byron and I? We have this so called good friendship that has certain rules to be follow. He calls me his "BABY" and I call him also my "BABY". IKR. He was so sweet and cute, NO DOUBT about that. NO guys or girls should be entertain to the fullest or else, it will start a fight between the two of us. I waited the whole day for Elgene to send a text message about the so called promise, but thankfully there was none. So I thought that he also forgot about it and was very about him forgetting about it.

January 3, 2010 (Sunday)

Hey! It is a Sunday. The traditional Sunday obligation was change. Instead, my family and I went to Pangasinan to attend a mass in the Our Lady of Manaoag. We were at a stop in on of the gasoline station along the NLEX when I received a text message from Elgene saying that, "Asan na yung promise mo? Kelan ba tayo magkikita? Tagal na nung promise mo ha." Then it strikes me, what a jerk he really is. He is not even my close friend or a so-called barkada to demand so much to me. I replied to him, that I was busy that day because I was out-of-town with my family. Then he said, "Gara mo naman. Ok. Bukas na lang ha. Baka nanaman ayawan mo ako. Hintayin kita bukas." But there is a problem, the next day was a Monday and it was my first day of class in the year 2010. So I was planning of saying no again, but he said before I was able to say it that he would tell Byron if I wouldn't do what I promise. OMG! I don't know what to do. Thankfully, I was done and I have forwarded all my projects due for that day. So I chose to missed one day of my class because I thought it won't harm anything. But I was so wrong, there are certain things that he really remember.

January 4, 2010 (Monday)

As usual I woke up the earliest as possible so that no suspicions will be made by anyone I know. For awhile, there was a feeling of nervousness and thrill stroke me. OMG! For the first time, I missed one day of my class just to make a stupid promise possible. I was dropped by our driver that morning infront of the gate of o9ur school. (WHAT A RUSH?!!) I was so afraid. At first, I was shaking like hell but then there is a part of me that was excited because it was my first time to be absent without the knowledge of my mom. When I arrived at the LRT station, I was having my second thoughts because I might get lost. But then, that is the challenge for me, to be able to manage myself without anyone with me. I just kept in my mind what my older sister always tells me, "Wag kang mahiya magtanong. Gusto mong matuto kaya ka nagtatanong. At isa pa, hindi naman bawal magtaong sa iba." So as planned I arrived where I should be by 8 o'clock in the morning. I was so shocked to learn that Elgene is already awake and he was waiting for my text message. After arriving where we should meet, I texted him that I was already there, and he was so arrogant to let me walk alone on that street on the way to his house. Finally, I found his house (Syempre, di naman siya masyadong malaki, tsaka ibang-iba sa mga bahay ng mga friends ko. Basta, di mo aakalain na mapapasok mo ako sa ganung klase ng bahay.) OMG! When I enetered the house there was his grandmother (Nanay), his brother (Jay-R) and his sister-in-law (Ate Merry) with his nephew (Stephanie). It was so shocking that he didn't even care to introduce me to his family. BTW, that's what the kind of guy he really is. ARROGANT MUCH! But I was so unpredictable thats why I inroduce myself to them as one of his friends. Before 12 o'clock in the afternoon, he was already inviting me to go somewhere else. So, I asked his grandmother's permission and as expected she didn't say no. We went to a small resort, he swam while I sleep. Well, I woke up late so don't blame me for sleeping. After a couple of hours, he got tired and fell asleep by my side. Then, he forgot to tell me that my bestfriend (Aron) will be coming. I was really confuse of everyhting that was happening between the two of us. I don't know what his real plans are. (May mga part ng past ko na ayaw ko ng maalala lalo na yung sa amin ng ex-bf/bestfriend ko. Naku naman! ang hirap ng sitwasyon noh? Epal kasi tong si Elgene.) Thankfully, the dat\y was almost over for me and them. I have to go home, so I said my goodbyes to both of them. And we parted different ways.

January 5, 2010 (Tuesday)

Wow! That event yesterday was really a breath-taking one. Thankfully, it was all over for me and him. (Sana nga! tapos na...) Well, this hopes were crushed when I recieved a text message from him that he wanted to see me again tomorrow. OMG! (Kapal naman ng mukha niya, daig pa nia yung baby ko kung makapagdemand na pumunta ako sakanila. Nakakabadtrip kaya yung asal niya!) So, I told him that I can't make it because I am busy for my project but he won't stop. And he flooded my inbox with his annoying text messages. It was so annoying because I was in school and he keeps on distracting me from my class. So I ended up saying the stupid yes, why can't I learn to say no for once. Am I that stupid? I am causing a trouble between them. OMG!

January 6, 2010 (Wednesday)

This is so over my league. This must stop from now, there is always an ending for everything. So as expected I did not attend my class that day and unexpectedly I brought one my classmate with me, Aislinn. We travelled the same way I did last Monday. And obviously, she keeps on complaining about the long trip. I just keep entertaining her until we arrive there. Same as usual, we went to the resort, Aislinn slept after taking a swam. While Elgene was taking along time to swim, I took a short nap. But afterwards, he got bored and started to disturb my good nap. So I end up getting mad at him for annoying me too much. Maybe, an hour pass by, we started to tease each other because of boredom. Until it was the time for Aislinn and I to go home because it was already getting late. But the worst part is that, we lacked the money to travel. We end up crying and trying to sell anything that we could sell. But my older sister caught us telling a lie and end up being scold for it. So reaching the final verdict, we gt home very late at around 11 o'clock in the evening. (Uwi pa ba ng matinong babae yan! Syempre hindi noh?) But all that happened that night was never found by any of the guys that we were with. (Syempre yung DREAMGUYZ yung tinutukoy ko na mga guys noh. Pano? Pumunta pa kasi kami kila Byron nung mga bandang 7 o'clock in the evening para lang makita siya nung isang tao dyan. HAHAHA. Nakakapagod kaya, pero para kay Byron, WHY NOT?!!)

Then, after all that happened this week. It changed everyhting about anything that is connected to me. It changed my whole circle of life in a split second. It messed up everything I was planning. But then again, I was still happy but confuse to what extent will we do these things.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

xoxo people... :)